20 months in 2 days

My Dear Jannah

All the sweet things I write about you on this blog are true. But it is also true that sometimes i get very angry with you and the things you do. Whenever I take a pen and make some notes you have to have it and when i spend too long at the computer you spank the key board and even take out some of the keys to get my attention. The number zero is out and seven and nine are almost falling out. Dad bought you a pop up book which you find interesting and tear out. I always get you the hard board ones. you like books. you love to scribble on paper and sometimes on the couch, bed sheets and blinds. Keeping the house neat and tidy is therefore a very hard job for me. you take your toys all over the house and i have to tidy up after you all the time. When you are done eating you like to turn your plate over and spill all the leftovers on your tray and on the floor. You just love to play with water and i dont really mind that but I hate it wshen you play with the water that you are supposed to drink. You wont let me comb your curly locks and you hate any hair clip or ornaments that I put on your hair. You take it right away and throw it off. sometimes i don't have the patience so I just shout back at you and you seem very sad. When we go to the mall you want to run instead of sitting in your stroller and dad and I get embarrased and angry. We take you to the park and play areas every week. We take you the kids programs at the library and we let you run in safe places but you never get tired. You can stay up till past 12 if we are at a dinner party. Woah!

But Jannah, you are literally our universe. Everything we do, whether it be a trip to the grand canyons or the July 4th fireworks we wonder whether you will be ok with it. We must purchase a house, we must save for your education, we must buy you those cute little toys and outfits, we must make a cd of your videos, we must teach you the Quran, we must show you love and respect all human beings irrespective of their culture and religion.... all the things we must do for you extend even beyond our lifetime... But Jannah one day there may come a day when you get angry with us, when you think that every thing we do for you is just our duty, where we may be too old for you to discuss your problems with us.

When the mysteries of life baffle you
when the choice between tv programs and Hijab confuse you
When questions start popping in your head

Always know that

It will be natural and when that happens remember that I am trying to deal with new things too. It wont be as easy as cleaning up after you or running behind you while combing your hair. It will be another challenge for me and I only hope that when you think of all your best friends I will be in the top of that list!