My Vision of the future!

I want one more. I badly want one more. But the thing is I don't want to get pregnant. We have discussed adoption and we both like the idea but I don't know how we can pull it through specially because my religion has strict rules regarding adoption. Every time I look at Moosa I am happy - he is a wonderful baby Masha Allah but I am also sad. I know that this phase will be over like the blink of an eye and then I will no longer have a baby in the house. I love the innocence of children. How so pure and truthful they are in their opinions. No sins, just pure. I want another one to hold and to hug and to care for.... Everyone discourages adopting, everyone discourages a fourth baby but at then end of the day it will boil down first to Allah's plan for us and then to my husband and I working it out together. I hope to spend this year asking for forgiveness and seeking spirituality. I want to achieve happiness by pleasing my creator. And how do I please my creator  - many ways - raising my children right, being there for my parents and grandma, giving without thinking twice, making my income 100% halal, making my payers long and beautiful and the coolness of my eyes, being a great mum and wife and daughter and sister to all those who love me! And finally to pray to be saved from hell and to enter heaven and be with all the prophets. I just cant wait to meet them!

I ask Allah to help me achieve the goals I have set for myself... Make me strong through my tests in life and to give me a good death and hereafter. I want the same for my family and everyone that I love! May peace prevail on earth! May those starving children be blessed with food!