My number one objective in life right now is that the children should do well in school. I need to write this down for myself and for my children. It distresses me when I hear criticism about them whether it be their academic performance or behavior.

My Vision of the future!

I want one more. I badly want one more. But the thing is I don't want to get pregnant. We have discussed adoption and we both like the idea but I don't know how we can pull it through specially because my religion has strict rules regarding adoption. Every time I look at Moosa I am happy - he is a wonderful baby Masha Allah but I am also sad. I know that this phase will be over like the blink of an eye and then I will no longer have a baby in the house. I love the innocence of children. How so pure and truthful they are in their opinions. No sins, just pure. I want another one to hold and to hug and to care for.... Everyone discourages adopting, everyone discourages a fourth baby but at then end of the day it will boil down first to Allah's plan for us and then to my husband and I working it out together. I hope to spend this year asking for forgiveness and seeking spirituality. I want to achieve happiness by pleasing my creator. And how do I please my creator  - many ways - raising my children right, being there for my parents and grandma, giving without thinking twice, making my income 100% halal, making my payers long and beautiful and the coolness of my eyes, being a great mum and wife and daughter and sister to all those who love me! And finally to pray to be saved from hell and to enter heaven and be with all the prophets. I just cant wait to meet them!

I ask Allah to help me achieve the goals I have set for myself... Make me strong through my tests in life and to give me a good death and hereafter. I want the same for my family and everyone that I love! May peace prevail on earth! May those starving children be blessed with food!

His smiles and giggles keep me going

I have to be honest. Its hard more than just sometimes. You gotta be on your toes for most of the day and even bathroom breaks are often interrupted but if you are home able to stay with your baby and raise him you are blessed!

Moosa is on a god routine. I try to work around his schedules and some days like everyone else there is no schedule. He is agood baby and enjoying my time with him Alhamdelillah. I love him to the moon and back. I miss Jannah and Haroon so much when they are in school. I just want them to be back soon and keep checking the time. If not for them, I would cook. I would live off cereal and tea. So Moosa when my vegetable are burning on the stove and my hair is wet because I have no time to dry it after a bath and my belly isnt going down as fast as I would liek it to, and my eyes are weary and closing at 8pm, its ok.... its ok that you are making me miserable because love conquers all and your sweetness is worth it all!